And the fuss continues

Well gollie g. Still fussy in these neck of the woods.
He's not hungry, his butt is clean. He doesn't want to be read to, sung to, held, tummy time, floor time.
GUH at wits end. SOOO I put him in his swing, turn the music on, give him toys and BAM he's quiet. He's content, not only that HE'S HAPPY! He looks at me with a smile and a happy "awwwaaaa" noise as if to say "Thanks for FINALLY leaving me ALONE ma!" Guh
Okay so I understand that he is getting more independent.
And I get that he wants to be put down more often.
BUT I want my newborn cuddles back! I keep thinking that tomorrow he'll want to cuddle all day again.
Tomorrow comes and nope, put me down, leave me alone, let me play....
I swear just yesterday it was Pick me up, hold me, pat my butt.
Babies grow to fast.

Now I'm stumped though, he doesn't want to cuddle, but I still want to interact with him...
What do I do? Say HELLO Dr Google (yes I know Google isn't ACTUALLY a dr, but whateva)
So searching through the endless amounts of information that google leads me too...
Did you know that babies by 20 weeks can distinguish between sounds comming towards them and sounds moving away from them?
And by 16 weeks know to close their eyes when something explodes?
SERIOUSLY!?
Wow so my son is a whole lot smarter than I gave him credit for.
No wonder he wants to explore the world on his own already.

That gets me thinking though, wouldn't I wrather explore on my own pace then have someone force it on me?
Things are more fun when I can chose when to do it.
Things are more fun when i can taste/see/smell/touch/hear it for myself.
I don't want to be told what a pear tastes like, I want to TASTE the pear.
So thats how I'm going to go about life with my child.
If HE seems intrested in something, I'm going to let him do with it what he wants (within reason of course)
But if he wants to look at the mud, squish the mud between his fingers, and put the mud in his mouth so be it!
That seems like such a better way to live anywho

And on that note I leave you with "alone time"

(though now I think he is grown bored because he has begun to fuss)

Fussy baby.

I really don't have much to say today except I have a fussy baby!
I hope he'll let me put him down so we can sleep tonight.
Last night he wouldnt let me have him anywhere but on my chest!
Not even next to me worked.
Blah, I'm tired.
BUT on a happy note
Swiming baby :)

Dang I look good in a bathing suit! :)

throwing up among other things

Being sick royally sucks! Bleah, I was sick ALL last night/this morning.
Now I'm all afraid to eat, I have to eat but I'm scared I'll throw up again.
Forcing myself to eat. Bleah.


Henry is good though, he's in a great mood.
Just figured out where his ears and feet are.
He sings too. Like aaaaaah, oooo Waaaaaaa.
It's really cute :)

Oh so that family photo thing I was talking about.
They showed up! YAY!
I was so excited I showed my mom early, so what if it wasnt mothers day yet.
My mom LOVED IT!


I'm at myrtle beach this week.
Going to take Henry to the pool tomorrow, or maybe the beach.
We'll seeeee. I'll post pictures tomorrow. :)

Got to start somewhere

 Got to start somewhere right? Bewear I ramble and train of thought type, so if you don't understand don't worry even I don't truly understand. Kk? (and PLEASE excuse the spelling mistakes. I can't spell)

I'm a first time mom at 20 (almost 21) I have a 4 mo old son, and he's ABSOLUTELY DRIVING ME BONKERS! (good start right?)
He's going through this stage where he doesn't want to cuddle to sleep, or comfort nurse, or anything. Yet he still wants to be held and I don't know what to do!
He is seriously driving me bug nuts.
I finally got him to sleep this morning....

....then...
"ding dong"
And it wasn't that important, me jumping up to answer the door woke him up, and it wasnt even important!
Ugh I would have laughed if it was a flaming bag of turd, but no it was a donation pick up for my little sisters clothes.
Nice.

I feel as if I'm being cranky.. Yeaaah cranky is a good word to decribe it.
I'll just blame it on the new mother hormones!

Got a new tattoo yesterday, it is the shape of my sons ear with his birth symble running through it.
I think it looks awesome :) I'm sure proud of myself for comming up with the design.

Watcha think?
I think it looks nifty. It kinda hurts, I need to rub some A&D loation on it.


I'm going to take pictures today of my family.
Shhh don't tell my mom, its a secret mothers day gift for her!
I hope she likes it.
It's going to be a picture of; Me and my son, My brother and his daughter, My 2 little sisters, and a picture of my angel baby brother.
Think she'll like it?

hooo-pa. Thats it for now. I'm sure more will come later.