First hair cut!

My little boy is growing up way to fast. He'll be 16 months on the 13th. That CRAZY 2 years ago around this time I found out I was pregnant. Now, he's a toddler running around like crazy, trying to make my hair go gray early.
He is the joy of my life, and my baby.
Or was my baby, now he is a toddler. His new hair cut reaffirms this too. He no longer LOOKS like a baby!

Before

before

during

during

after

after

Guh a buzz cut. What have I done? All his beautiful soft baby hair. It makes me cry, seriously, I cried.
He's got to grow up though right? And he looks cute regardless of what his hair looks like.
So even though he no longer looks like a baby, he'll always be my baby.
I love him so much.

Pictures

 Just a post filled with pictures that make me happy

Note, I'm not a photographer.

Big helper

Cooling off in the sprinkler

Slide!

Spin!

Climb!

Nana Robin love

Dare devil

Wayne

I've been delaying doing this post for a while now. I'm lost in thought, I'm hurt, I'm angry, I'm still in denial.
On March 21st 2012 we lost a good friend to suicide.
Wayne. Wayne was a good friend, a great friend. Full of heart he hid it from people who didn't really know him by being a sarcastic asshole. If you could get past his walls he was one of the best friends you could ever have. He was the first of my husbands friends that I hung out with. As soon as we got introduced he looks straight at my husband and says "Good choice, A whole lot better than the last one man" And gives me an ear to ear grin.

His ear to ear grin

After hanging out with him a few times he grew on me like moss on a tree. One evening I turned to him and said "Hey Wayne, I don't have many friends...... Will you be my friend." He blinked at me like I just said the stupidest thing he's ever heard. A grin slowly spreads across his face and he laughs "I don't think I've actually had anyone ask ME to be their friend...... Yeah, yeah Lorren I'll be your friend."

Though I loved him, I was one of the many. My husband considered him his best friend, and so did countless other. He was one of the guys that even though you hadn't hung out with him in a while, he'd still be there for you if you called and needed help.

"big smiles" A toast to Wayne
(At his memorial)

I don't know why he did what he did, I don't know the back story, I don't know how he felt. We saw him the Saturday before and nothing seemed amiss. But, now he is gone, we can never ask him why. I know he will be missed. Rest in peace Wayne, your demons can no longer get you where you are.

Got to start somewhere

 Got to start somewhere right? Bewear I ramble and train of thought type, so if you don't understand don't worry even I don't truly understand. Kk? (and PLEASE excuse the spelling mistakes. I can't spell)

I'm a first time mom at 20 (almost 21) I have a 4 mo old son, and he's ABSOLUTELY DRIVING ME BONKERS! (good start right?)
He's going through this stage where he doesn't want to cuddle to sleep, or comfort nurse, or anything. Yet he still wants to be held and I don't know what to do!
He is seriously driving me bug nuts.
I finally got him to sleep this morning....

....then...
"ding dong"
And it wasn't that important, me jumping up to answer the door woke him up, and it wasnt even important!
Ugh I would have laughed if it was a flaming bag of turd, but no it was a donation pick up for my little sisters clothes.
Nice.

I feel as if I'm being cranky.. Yeaaah cranky is a good word to decribe it.
I'll just blame it on the new mother hormones!

Got a new tattoo yesterday, it is the shape of my sons ear with his birth symble running through it.
I think it looks awesome :) I'm sure proud of myself for comming up with the design.

Watcha think?
I think it looks nifty. It kinda hurts, I need to rub some A&D loation on it.


I'm going to take pictures today of my family.
Shhh don't tell my mom, its a secret mothers day gift for her!
I hope she likes it.
It's going to be a picture of; Me and my son, My brother and his daughter, My 2 little sisters, and a picture of my angel baby brother.
Think she'll like it?

hooo-pa. Thats it for now. I'm sure more will come later.